I died on Friday
Last day of high school. finally.
Today was both wonderful and sad. I took pictures with all my friends. Most of them anyways. I’m a miss them all. Talked to people I hadn’t talk to in a while. Socialized with people I usually don’t socialize with. My ex’s ex drew a dead fetus on the year book page I wrote and drew pretty flowers on for my friend Sam. I love it when people hate me for reasons like that. It empowers me. >:] But I’m glad it’s finally all over with now. What was done was done and what wasn’t, wasn’t. Just glad to be graduating and moving on with my life.
Things I look forward to now are VVC and a university worth my time. And of course HOSA Nationals. I plan on giving it my all. I can not leave empty handed. And Disney World. How can I not be excited about that! Orlando, FL here I come! ha-ha :D
I’m so happy. I love my babe. You always know how to make everything better. I love you. Yesterday was so much fun. Even though some of it felt like a capitol punishment! But I enjoyed it very much. I love you. :) I love intimacy (with you! It’s fuckin’ amazing! Jesus fuckin’ Christ! :) ) And you brought over your baby/toddler pictures. You were so god dam cute!! OMG It’s crazy how cute you were. It’s insane! I can’t get over it. And now you’re all manly and stuff. I love it. And I love you.
Thank you for making my day and everything possible.
Grad-night later today. Leaving home at 7:30 or 40ish to catch the bus. So excited. I can’t wait to see Lucy. I love Lucy. My bestest bestest chick friend since forever. I can always count on her. She’s the best and hella fun. Never been to Six Flags: Magic Mountain either so I’m super excited for that also.
Today is going to be fucken’ great. :D
The Medical Awards Night went well! I got a HOSA/Medical Assisting Scholarship, my sash and my medical assisting certificate, among others! Including a certificate and Starbucks gift card for being a TA. lol. I love you Mrs. Harrower! I’m really glad Iza and the other gals pulled us all up there to thank you!!! Over all great night. Real good encouragement. :)
My last week of high school. No big.
Today is just one of those days where all I wanna do is do nothing and eat. Someone get me an egg mcmuffin with no ham and an extra round. Thanks. My brain is twirling.
basically me at school all day
me: i hate all of you
me: stop screaming you saw your friend yesterday
me: holy fuck walk faster
me: get smarter idiot
me: maybe if i hit my head on my desk enough times ill die
My Insecurities.
Have destroyed countless friendships. I try to control them now. But I am almost certain, that they will destroy a few more in the future. I hate myself, but i try not too. And having friends eventually always leads too me feeling inadequate. Which always makes me angry. It makes me do stupid things. I wish i could stop this.
:( I love you.
Being tender and open is beautiful. As a woman, I feel continually shhh’ed. Too sensitive. Too mushy. Too wishy washy. Blah blah. Don’t let someone steal your tenderness. Don’t allow the coldness and fear of others to tarnish your perfectly vulnerable beating heart. Nothing is more powerful than allowing yourself to truly be affected by things. Whether it’s a song, a stranger, a mountain, a rain drop, a tea kettle, an article, a sentence, a footstep, feel it all – look around you. All of this is for you. Take it and have gratitude. Give it and feel love.
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